Though the current project started as a series of posts charting my grief journey after the death of my mother, I am no longer actively grieving. Now, the blog charts a conversation in living, mainly whatever I want it to be. This is an activity that goes well with the theme of this blog (updated 2018). The Sense of Doubt blog is dedicated to my motto: EMBRACE UNCERTAINTY. I promote questioning everything because just when I think I know something is concrete, I find out that it’s not.
Friday, August 14, 2015
Hey, Mom! Talking to My Mother #40 - depressed
Hey, Mom! Talking to My Mother #40 - I have been a little depressed lately
Hi Mom,
I have been feeling a little depressed lately. Not that you can deduce that fact from this photo. But when the photo above was taken, you were still alive. It's a picture from sometime in the 1990s. I am fairly certain the picture was taken in my VW Rabbit, which I drove in the early 1990s before I bought the GEO in 1993. I guess this could be the late 1980s or even 1990. I am not sure.
I have been feeling depressed, and I am trying to shake it off. It probably did not help that I looked through a lot of old photos today.
Here's what I did today. Knowing that I am feeling depressed, I forced myself to be active and not sit around the house all day eating ice cream. I took Satchel to Camp Fido. I showered early and went to the Kalamazoo County Fair to see Alan Kazam, the magician at 10 a.m. I ran a few errands and went to your condo to wrap Liesel's birthday presents. I ordered her a cake.
I did a few other things, which I will tell you about later.
I also have a new way to describe this situation to people. It's like the Twilight Zone. It's like an alternate universe that I am only visiting, and eventually I get to go back to my home universe, where you're still alive.
I just ate some Chinese food.
I have the KUDL tournament tomorrow, and I will surely post about it after.
I love you, Mom.
I miss you.
Have someone give you a kiss, and tell you that I love you.
Talk to you tomorrow, Mom.
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- Days ago = 41 days ago
- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 1508.14 - 19:40

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