A Sense of Doubt blog post #3816 - SoD Reprint of #1095 from 2018 - Throwback, Photos, PENULTIMATE HEY MOM #1095
So, another reprint, and then another Sunday, but two school posts in between. On Saturday, a post for Ryne Sandberg who died Monday.
I am at low power but not officially low power mode.
Writing a 47-page research project quite shell-shocked me. Long day on Sunday to finish it. Of course, it didn't need to be 47 pages. It didn't even need to 17 pages. But I learned a lot writing it and feel it's a very in-depth investigation of what I was asked to write, which was analyzing four events from my life from a developmental science perspective. All of that effort, especially Friday-Sunday, left me spent, and I have not done a whole lot on Monday or Tuesday of this week. So, easy posts were a good choice. Plus, I posted five blog posts yesterday to social media, even though I had two of them published already.
This reprint is the PENULTIMATE daily HEY MOM post, meaning that #1096 was the last consecutive daily HEY MOM, which I ended after three years of consecutive posting.
This reprint is the PENULTIMATE daily HEY MOM post, meaning that #1096 was the last consecutive daily HEY MOM, which I ended after three years of consecutive posting.
I wrote about some of these things here:
Friday, July 4, 2025
and
Monday, July 7, 2025
I am rather proud of my blog, and especially of the three years of consecutive HEY MOM posts. Doing that, really helped me find a way for my life to contain the grief of losing my Mom. I continue that work now following the death of Dad, coming up on one year ago.
One thing I do that helps is the daily count of days since my parents died.
Mom's count is up to 3681 days as of today, though that counts the day of her death and today's date as well as I explain above in post #3793.
However, Dad's count -- #335 -- is marching toward that one year mark. I realized when I looked at the number today one of the ways I cope with that count. When the count was low, I could assure myself that it just happened, he just died, not that long ago. As the count grows, and soon it will reach 365, I understand that I do the count, I watch the count, to come to accept the reality of this loss. In a sense the loss both grows with that number and lessens. It grows in the sense of how long I am living without Mom or Dad (or both), and it lessens the intense pain of the experience as the farther I get from it, the more accepting I am of it.
Also, as I watch the months progress, a part of me is comforted by how "it is not August yet." I literally say that to myself. Even today, just two days from August, I can still say it. I will say it tomorrow. And then it will be August, and that's the month in which Dad died. And then the new thing will be not yet in the August 20s. Still weeks away. And then, it will be August 28th, the day itself. And that might be a difficult day.
On to today's cool reprint.
BTW, the photo (above and below) was taken through a window that looked into a pool at some hotel. My Dad was not under water with a water-proof camera.
The original link to the post I am reprinting below:
Hey, Mom! Talking to My Mother #1095 - Throwback Thursday for 1807.05
Hi Mom,
Tomorrow will be the last of the daily transmissions of Hey Mom. I am continuing Hey Mom as a feature but mostly just twice a week unless special occasions or inspirations necessitate more.
But today, somewhat chatty. And then a reprint with a lot of Mom photos.
As I shared yesterday, I feel closest to you in nature, Mom, mainly because I feel close to the spiritual there. The nature here in our new home is even more deeply spiritual and older than that of Michigan, though this is surely just a feeling that's not based in accuracy. Mountains inspire thoughts of the age of the earth and our brief time here as humans compared to the overall length of the planet's history thus far.
So, Liesel and I took two hikes lately: Sunday down in the Tillamook State Forest along the Wilson River Trail, with the dogs, which is a bit challenging, and then yesterday, Wednesday, July 4th, around Coldwater Lake at the base of Mt. St. Helens, without the dogs. I would have liked to be on the hike at the time of your death, but we couldn't even make it there by the equivalent time in this time zone, (10:10 a.m.) let alone being on the trail at 7:10 a.m. We're not morning exercise people.
But one good thing is that we're jazzed to take more hikes. Maybe as soon as this weekend. We also want to go Kayaking.
In other news, the Tigers lost both of their games to the Cubs in Wrigley, and apparently back east, near our old home, it's really hot. People were suffering from heat exhaustion. I could have elected to stay home yesterday to watch the game, but I didn't want to be home on the anniversary of your death, Mom. I want to be out living life, being active, having fun. It's what you want for me. I feel it.
In other other news, things are progressing slowly. I did not make as much progress with job search or coding while on breaks from Park and CTU as I would have liked. But I am undaunted. I will keep at it.
Just basically daily chores take a lot of time -- errands, kitchen clean up, watering the lawn and plants, dog care (walks), trash, laundry, and really, I need to find time to do some more cleaning rather than just spot cleaning; I pick up clumps of dog hair when I see them.
I also wanted to assemble my bike -- front tire was removed in the move -- and take it for a spin.
Beyond that, there's not much to report. I am reading as much as I can and have time for. Comic books are a solace. I am reading Nick Harkaway's Gnomon in the traditional way, and I am almost done with Stephen King's latest -- The Outsider -- as my audio book.
Also, I am trying to sit outside for one-three hours a day when the sun is high in the sky and my back porch is actually shady. Today I plan to do some coding while sitting out there.
I have been trying to get more work done during the week, so I have less to do on the weekend. I don't like putting in major hours on the weekend, especially Sunday.
I took off Wednesday from work completely, 100%. I did not check my classes and did zero work. This kind of break rarely happens.
I am not sure what I am going to write tomorrow for the last daily, consecutive Hey Mom post. But I do know that I will be back next week to continue our conversation, Mom, and with some new photos (back to series one).
Did I mention that I am going back to Michigan in August? I am. More on that later. I need to start creating my schedule.
So for now, a reprint of one of my better photo galleries. Lots of variety here.
From -
http://sensedoubt.blogspot.com/2017/01/hey-mom-talking-to-my-mother-544-2016.html
Hey, Mom! Talking to My Mother #544 - 2016, the blog that was, Mom Photos, the other years in pictures - clearing out my folder
Hi Mom,
It's 2017, which marks the start of a second year with out you.
I am clearing out my folder and in a mode of pictures only.
Here's a celebration to you, including pictures of many of your things still in place at the condo you shared with Dad: your cooks books and your cat picture wall.
I love you.
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- Days ago = 546 days ago
- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 1701.01 - 10:10
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Reflect and connect.
Have someone give you a kiss, and tell you that I love you, Mom.
I miss you so very much, Mom.
Talk to you tomorrow, Mom.
- Days ago = 1097 days ago
- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 1807.05 - 10:10
NEW (written 1708.27) NOTE on time: I am now in the same time zone as Google! So, when I post at 10:10 a.m. PDT to coincide with the time of your death, Mom, I am now actually posting late, so it's really 1:10 p.m. EDT. But I will continue to use the time stamp of 10:10 a.m. to remember the time of your death, Mom. I know this only matters to me, and to you, Mom.
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The original link to the post I am reprinting below:
Thursday, July 5, 2018
Hey, Mom! Talking to My Mother #1095 - Throwback Thursday for 1807.05
Hi Mom,
Tomorrow will be the last of the daily transmissions of Hey Mom. I am continuing Hey Mom as a feature but mostly just twice a week unless special occasions or inspirations necessitate more.
But today, somewhat chatty. And then a reprint with a lot of Mom photos.
As I shared yesterday, I feel closest to you in nature, Mom, mainly because I feel close to the spiritual there. The nature here in our new home is even more deeply spiritual and older than that of Michigan, though this is surely just a feeling that's not based in accuracy. Mountains inspire thoughts of the age of the earth and our brief time here as humans compared to the overall length of the planet's history thus far.
So, Liesel and I took two hikes lately: Sunday down in the Tillamook State Forest along the Wilson River Trail, with the dogs, which is a bit challenging, and then yesterday, Wednesday, July 4th, around Coldwater Lake at the base of Mt. St. Helens, without the dogs. I would have liked to be on the hike at the time of your death, but we couldn't even make it there by the equivalent time in this time zone, (10:10 a.m.) let alone being on the trail at 7:10 a.m. We're not morning exercise people.
But one good thing is that we're jazzed to take more hikes. Maybe as soon as this weekend. We also want to go Kayaking.
In other news, the Tigers lost both of their games to the Cubs in Wrigley, and apparently back east, near our old home, it's really hot. People were suffering from heat exhaustion. I could have elected to stay home yesterday to watch the game, but I didn't want to be home on the anniversary of your death, Mom. I want to be out living life, being active, having fun. It's what you want for me. I feel it.
In other other news, things are progressing slowly. I did not make as much progress with job search or coding while on breaks from Park and CTU as I would have liked. But I am undaunted. I will keep at it.
Just basically daily chores take a lot of time -- errands, kitchen clean up, watering the lawn and plants, dog care (walks), trash, laundry, and really, I need to find time to do some more cleaning rather than just spot cleaning; I pick up clumps of dog hair when I see them.
I also wanted to assemble my bike -- front tire was removed in the move -- and take it for a spin.
Beyond that, there's not much to report. I am reading as much as I can and have time for. Comic books are a solace. I am reading Nick Harkaway's Gnomon in the traditional way, and I am almost done with Stephen King's latest -- The Outsider -- as my audio book.
Also, I am trying to sit outside for one-three hours a day when the sun is high in the sky and my back porch is actually shady. Today I plan to do some coding while sitting out there.
I have been trying to get more work done during the week, so I have less to do on the weekend. I don't like putting in major hours on the weekend, especially Sunday.
I took off Wednesday from work completely, 100%. I did not check my classes and did zero work. This kind of break rarely happens.
I am not sure what I am going to write tomorrow for the last daily, consecutive Hey Mom post. But I do know that I will be back next week to continue our conversation, Mom, and with some new photos (back to series one).
Did I mention that I am going back to Michigan in August? I am. More on that later. I need to start creating my schedule.
So for now, a reprint of one of my better photo galleries. Lots of variety here.
From -
http://sensedoubt.blogspot.com/2017/01/hey-mom-talking-to-my-mother-544-2016.html
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| Mom looking all Jackie K in convertible |
Hi Mom,
It's 2017, which marks the start of a second year with out you.
I am clearing out my folder and in a mode of pictures only.
Here's a celebration to you, including pictures of many of your things still in place at the condo you shared with Dad: your cooks books and your cat picture wall.
I love you.
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| Mom and Dad 39th Wedding Anniversary |
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| MOM and Dad - APX Christmas Formal 5612.14 |
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| MOM and Dad - APX Christmas Formal 5712.14 |
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| Mom and Dad Cub's Fish Roast 1998 |
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| Mom and Delbridge family 11-10-1991 |
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| Mom and Grandpa Delbridge 5-23-1998 |
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| Mom and us with friends in Wales June 1986 |
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| Mom at Turkeyville 2011 |
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| Mom Birthday 1998 |
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| Mom birthday 1999 |
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| Mom birthday dinner Claras BC 10-96 |
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| Mom coming down aisle to marry Dad 1958 |
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| Mom Lori and Dad 10-9-98-RBT pinned Lori Oshtemo Rotary |
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| Mom Merle Norman Ad-08-1994 |
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| Mom metrbt-1997-zoo |
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| Mom stuff 1610.21 taken |
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| Mom stuff 1610.21 taken |
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| Mom stuff 1610.21 taken |
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| Mom stuff 1610.21 taken |
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| Mom with Delbridge Family - June 1986 Lois Graduation Party |
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| Mom's Cat Wall |
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| Mom's Cat Wall |
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| Mom's Cat Wall |
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| Mom's Favorite Mustard |
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| Mom's shirt in my closet |
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| MOM-cbt birthday 2007 001 |
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| MOM-in the convertible |
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| Mom-Rykses-Oct-Nov-98 |
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| Mother's Day 2012 |
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| Mother's Day 2010 |
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| Brick in Memorial Garden at Richland Presbyterian Church taken 1610.21 w-dad |
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- Days ago = 546 days ago
- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 1701.01 - 10:10
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+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
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Reflect and connect.
Have someone give you a kiss, and tell you that I love you, Mom.
I miss you so very much, Mom.
Talk to you tomorrow, Mom.
- Days ago = 1097 days ago
- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 1807.05 - 10:10
NEW (written 1708.27) NOTE on time: I am now in the same time zone as Google! So, when I post at 10:10 a.m. PDT to coincide with the time of your death, Mom, I am now actually posting late, so it's really 1:10 p.m. EDT. But I will continue to use the time stamp of 10:10 a.m. to remember the time of your death, Mom. I know this only matters to me, and to you, Mom.
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- Bloggery committed by chris tower - 2507.30 - 10:10
- Days ago: MOM = 3681 days ago & DAD = 335 days ago
- New note - On 1807.06, I ceased daily transmission of my Hey Mom feature after three years of daily conversations. I post Hey Mom blog entries on special occasions. I post the days since ("Days Ago") count on my blog each day, and now I have a second count for Days since my Dad died on August 28, 2024. I am now in the same time zone as Google! So, when I post at 10:10 a.m. PDT to coincide with the time of Mom's death, I am now actually posting late, so it's really 1:10 p.m. EDT. But I will continue to use the time stamp of 10:10 a.m. to remember the time of her death and sometimes 13:40 EDT for the time of Dad's death. The blog entry numbering in the title has changed to reflect total Sense of Doubt posts since I began the blog on 0705.04, which include Hey Mom posts, Daily Bowie posts, and Sense of Doubt posts. Hey Mom posts will still be numbered sequentially. New Hey Mom posts will use the same format as all the other Hey Mom posts; all other posts will feature this format seen here.
- Days ago: MOM = 3681 days ago & DAD = 335 days ago
- New note - On 1807.06, I ceased daily transmission of my Hey Mom feature after three years of daily conversations. I post Hey Mom blog entries on special occasions. I post the days since ("Days Ago") count on my blog each day, and now I have a second count for Days since my Dad died on August 28, 2024. I am now in the same time zone as Google! So, when I post at 10:10 a.m. PDT to coincide with the time of Mom's death, I am now actually posting late, so it's really 1:10 p.m. EDT. But I will continue to use the time stamp of 10:10 a.m. to remember the time of her death and sometimes 13:40 EDT for the time of Dad's death. The blog entry numbering in the title has changed to reflect total Sense of Doubt posts since I began the blog on 0705.04, which include Hey Mom posts, Daily Bowie posts, and Sense of Doubt posts. Hey Mom posts will still be numbered sequentially. New Hey Mom posts will use the same format as all the other Hey Mom posts; all other posts will feature this format seen here.
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